i was reading the letter -like an actual letter- post mailed -i mean seriously who does that anymore- by my mate Elly *go Rosyth!*.. typically she will be jet setting around the world but she still remembers my birthday. the last i saw her was at her swanky pad before i left for Tareem and always i kept her in my du'a throughout my years there. 30 years of friendship.. she didn't need to go to Tareem to be given the wisdom of what companionship is all about. she has this humble desire to learn the true ways of Islam and humble is what she is albeit her independent Sascha-Fierce ways.
Allah gifts us special friends to "accompany" us in this journey called life. make loads of du'a to be surrounded by the most blessed of heart companions in the form of friendship or teachers. this is WAY different from the must-always-meet/contact-to-catch-up.. must-always-be-around-for-each-other culture-influenced relationships. on the other hand the companionship i was referring to comes with benefits for the akhirah.. just by the mere thought of them gives one strong boosts of esteem needed to tell yourself, "ok, we -as in me and the 4-languaged voices in my head; don't ask- are good now.. let's refocus on our purpose here in this dunya.." *cue clap clap & new zealand blacks firm holler* i have a weird thing for them. apsal seh dora. ok, bygones.
in my own personal journey i realized it takes a whole lot of self-cleansing just to gain a glimpse of their works or their companionship. they aid you in the path of pursuing better in life and for that Allah makes you remember and mouth every single one of their names in your du'a cuz really, their aid is at times a touch-and-go yet leaves a lasting impressions.
the APEX mentors.. my first brush with madrasah students in the blessed environment of WakTanjong.. the sajadah lady in Masjidun Nabawi.. amazing personalities i call colleagues AND good friends.. the Canadian Dowra heroes in AbuDhabi.. the Aussie converts.. Allah yaftah 'alaihum.
Alfi Sanaa.. my bunk mate from Indonesia. she passed me a note recently via a Singaporean student returning for the holidays with some selawat water in her bottle. she wrote that though i have left her physically she reminded me that we are strongly linked in our hearts and du'a for each other. she was the one i could count on before for ihya al-lail on blessed days to join me for solatul hajat for my personal of reasons. this was our way of helping each other.. this was and still is our friendship.. the link is our teacher Habib Umar bin Hafiz who is really (like aahhmagawddd) present in our subconscious -SO don't know how to explain it well-.. the core is Rasulullah s.a.w. and the goal is always Allah.
i knew Thana back in Tareem. her calm yet cheery cheeky outlook towards life is heartwarming.. one would not even begin to think she had any less despite the cute hearings aids she has to wear. she read lips well.. too well.. lolz. she has since returned to UK and every Friday with the best of intentions, she texts me hadith or an Al-Quran verse for fawaidh.
she doesn't know this but it is always very suited for my current state at the time except 2 weeks ago when she sent me a verse about grieving and i remembered telling myself.. "urm, im quite over the moon in my "new world" now.. what grieving?" yet today... i asked her for the verse again..
Allah gifts us special friends to "accompany" us in this journey called life. make loads of du'a to be surrounded by the most blessed of heart companions in the form of friendship or teachers. this is WAY different from the must-always-meet/contact-to-catch-up.. must-always-be-around-for-each-other culture-influenced relationships. on the other hand the companionship i was referring to comes with benefits for the akhirah.. just by the mere thought of them gives one strong boosts of esteem needed to tell yourself, "ok, we -as in me and the 4-languaged voices in my head; don't ask- are good now.. let's refocus on our purpose here in this dunya.." *cue clap clap & new zealand blacks firm holler* i have a weird thing for them. apsal seh dora. ok, bygones.
in my own personal journey i realized it takes a whole lot of self-cleansing just to gain a glimpse of their works or their companionship. they aid you in the path of pursuing better in life and for that Allah makes you remember and mouth every single one of their names in your du'a cuz really, their aid is at times a touch-and-go yet leaves a lasting impressions.
the APEX mentors.. my first brush with madrasah students in the blessed environment of WakTanjong.. the sajadah lady in Masjidun Nabawi.. amazing personalities i call colleagues AND good friends.. the Canadian Dowra heroes in AbuDhabi.. the Aussie converts.. Allah yaftah 'alaihum.
Alfi Sanaa.. my bunk mate from Indonesia. she passed me a note recently via a Singaporean student returning for the holidays with some selawat water in her bottle. she wrote that though i have left her physically she reminded me that we are strongly linked in our hearts and du'a for each other. she was the one i could count on before for ihya al-lail on blessed days to join me for solatul hajat for my personal of reasons. this was our way of helping each other.. this was and still is our friendship.. the link is our teacher Habib Umar bin Hafiz who is really (like aahhmagawddd) present in our subconscious -SO don't know how to explain it well-.. the core is Rasulullah s.a.w. and the goal is always Allah.
i knew Thana back in Tareem. her calm yet cheery cheeky outlook towards life is heartwarming.. one would not even begin to think she had any less despite the cute hearings aids she has to wear. she read lips well.. too well.. lolz. she has since returned to UK and every Friday with the best of intentions, she texts me hadith or an Al-Quran verse for fawaidh.
she doesn't know this but it is always very suited for my current state at the time except 2 weeks ago when she sent me a verse about grieving and i remembered telling myself.. "urm, im quite over the moon in my "new world" now.. what grieving?" yet today... i asked her for the verse again..
cuz i needed it.
Dada.. she is Allah's mercy upon me mashaAllah. cuz she is in Singapore with me. yay. well, at least for now. it is akin to having DaruzZahra resident teachers who are ever ready to extend answers to you at any time of the day and to provide you with slaps (of course not literally) to wake you from unnecessary emotional indulgence.
oh yes, we terrorize our residents teachers almost on a daily basis back in the Dar to entertain our most quizzical of questions and decipher our oddest of dreams. we were always welcomed with their ever patient ever knowledgeable ever delicate ways which always leaves us ever weirded out ever whoaaa.. that they always have the best of solutions. mashaAllah.. surun 3x (uh i was itching to say that. heh.)
my question this time round was with regards to a video on Al-Quran negating sadness and how Rasulullah s.a.w. made du'a to be protected from worry and sadness (i actually make that du'a post every solah without immersing its meaning till now).. and as usual Dora needs tafseer & tadzkirah.. and that is why i say Allah is Most Merciful for having Dada at arm's length. i was a wee bit confused cuz we learnt that heartbreaks and tears are one of the ways to a softer heart.. a heart of Nur.. a heart embedded with Al-Quran so Dada explained..
This is sadness yg dtg from our disappointments in life. From not achieving or getting what we want. But sadness for Allah and complaining that sadness to Allah is a good thing. Likd nabi ya'qoub in the Quran says: i complain my sorrow and my sadness only to you my Lord.
Rasulullah sollahu alaihi wassalam said to Sayyiduna Abu Bakr like what is mentioned in the Quran. Don't be sad Allah is with us. So both sadness pun from Allah. But the sadness that is forbidden when it is not for him and you don't go back to him. And this becomes the door for syaitan to enter.
And both sadness may look the same. But in reality the hearts whom is beating of Allah's name is not the same with the hearts whose grieve engulfs them and make them forget Allah the Almighty
mashaAllah they actually think alike.. somewhat conspiring to make me feel better without realizing it.. now how can you not believe in the Greatness that is Allah? *wipes tears*
gawd PMS is for real.
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