and even then.. in the midst of tension headaches from one after another task.. i literally hear my heart yearning for Tarim.
i realise after the recent Bidayatul Hidayah sessions, i actually am sounding un-trustful of Allah. as Ana Bibi mentioned, a true mukmin is pleased with wherever Allah places him.
a little sneek peek from my little notebook:-
Wednesday, 21 March 2012
7.30pm @ Masjid Muhajirin
Bidayatul Hidayah (a book by Imam Al-Ghazali)
taught by Ustadha Sharifah Maimunah Al-Habshi
what you want is sometimes not what you need.. what you want is something you should be able to LET GO cuz you want to have trust in Allah not just the belief that you should trust in Allah. make POSITIVE HAPPY DU'A.
i realise after the recent Bidayatul Hidayah sessions, i actually am sounding un-trustful of Allah. as Ana Bibi mentioned, a true mukmin is pleased with wherever Allah places him.
a little sneek peek from my little notebook:-
Wednesday, 21 March 2012
7.30pm @ Masjid Muhajirin
Bidayatul Hidayah (a book by Imam Al-Ghazali)
taught by Ustadha Sharifah Maimunah Al-Habshi
what you want is sometimes not what you need.. what you want is something you should be able to LET GO cuz you want to have trust in Allah not just the belief that you should trust in Allah. make POSITIVE HAPPY DU'A.
Tuesday, 28 March 2012
12.25am @ HM
my own thoughts:- the unsettling heart.. migrane's back for a reason.
save me from these people? NO.
SAVE ME FROM ME!!!
their front may be religious but hearts are black...
continue and you'll end up the same!!!
on a sidenote:- i was near depression at the state of my heart. i want to be good but im gossiping and got involved in backbiting sessions. i felt so frustrated with myself.. with my heart. i knew this guilt of having a tainted heart from having an even more tainted mouth was eating me. i remembered i did loads of selawat syifa'.. i had a bad feeling that Allah was mad at me and i was hoping for Rasulullah s.a.w. to intercede. yes, i was in a bad state. either way, my heart ached from being dissapointed in myself cuz i know i shouldn't be blaming others for i attract what i beam from inside. my insides were rotten and Allah mirrored my weakness via the company i am with. Alhamdulillah things were alot lighter after especially with Bidayatul Hidayah sessions.
Wednesday, 28 March 2012
7.30pm @ Masjid Muhajirin
Bidayatul Hidayah (a book by Imam Al-Ghazali)
taught by Ustadha Sharifah Maimunah Al-Habshi
don't use Allah as a tool to get what you want.. that want should be a tool to "get" Allah. focus with meditation and this focus is the khusyuk in solah that one should have. clear out your mind and just be still.. say, "God, I am trying to focus so help me." ETIQUETTE WITH ALLAH.
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