in my heartbreaking moments, i do wonder if my intention to study in Tarim is part due to a supposed escape from life here in Singapore. i sound ungrateful don't i? *istighfar*
always i snap out of it real fast. alhamdulillah for this active mind of mine, this worriesome heart that i hope and pray always has guidance from Allah. deep down i know there is a life where good old Islamic values are practiced and is still applicable to this modern day and age.
a life free of vanity, free of ignorance, free of backbiting, free of endless gossip, free of ill feelings towards each other... free of being trapped and lost in heedlessness due to diseases of the heart.. diseases of 'ujub, riya', hasad etc. that disallows the pure light of our religion to penetrate into our soiled hearts.. definitely a life free of overated power and rank that amounts to dunya.. dunya and more dunya.
basically a detachment from materialism that has sadly been unjustly entangled with modernisn and progression. says who we Muslims can't be progressive or modern? but does that mean we sacrifice our values?
if being progressive and modern means the line between haram and halal goes grey to a point of a dot (a grey dot!)...why then would i want anything to do with progression and modernism set by the standards of the mere man?
so yes, i need to learn my Islam... in depth.. truthfully for the sake of Allah's closeness (i need to be AWARE of Allah's closeness in me) and HIS pleasure. im getting confused being here... that's my own weakness due to my lack of knowledge in my own religion. how can i stand up for something seemingly so simple and so right but i am unable to relay it to my family and friends around me.
Allah does not need us to worship HIM. Allah created HIS creations and along with it this religion for our own good. Islam is a way of life, applicable in any time and era... rules are set for our own good. we just have to learn.. to abide.. to seek that sacred knowledge. seriously, Allah doesn't need us. we need the religion HE gave.. we SO need HIM.
and so my quest to study in Tarim continues... Alhamdulillah my name has been registered with the school's administration. oh student Visa issuance halt... what a challenge that red sentence on the Yemen Embassy website is.
as my arabic teacher once texted.. "mashaAllah.. kheir insyaAllah.."
yes, inshaAllah khair.. jazakAllahu khayran ya ustadh syed mustafa alsagoff.. may Allah keep you and your family (that definitely includes your SiX kids mashaAllah!) in the best of health, Iman and be granted happiness in your days and your nights.. be given ease in tests of dunya and a rank close and pleased by Allah in akhirah.. amin.. =)
always i snap out of it real fast. alhamdulillah for this active mind of mine, this worriesome heart that i hope and pray always has guidance from Allah. deep down i know there is a life where good old Islamic values are practiced and is still applicable to this modern day and age.
a life free of vanity, free of ignorance, free of backbiting, free of endless gossip, free of ill feelings towards each other... free of being trapped and lost in heedlessness due to diseases of the heart.. diseases of 'ujub, riya', hasad etc. that disallows the pure light of our religion to penetrate into our soiled hearts.. definitely a life free of overated power and rank that amounts to dunya.. dunya and more dunya.
basically a detachment from materialism that has sadly been unjustly entangled with modernisn and progression. says who we Muslims can't be progressive or modern? but does that mean we sacrifice our values?
if being progressive and modern means the line between haram and halal goes grey to a point of a dot (a grey dot!)...why then would i want anything to do with progression and modernism set by the standards of the mere man?
so yes, i need to learn my Islam... in depth.. truthfully for the sake of Allah's closeness (i need to be AWARE of Allah's closeness in me) and HIS pleasure. im getting confused being here... that's my own weakness due to my lack of knowledge in my own religion. how can i stand up for something seemingly so simple and so right but i am unable to relay it to my family and friends around me.
Allah does not need us to worship HIM. Allah created HIS creations and along with it this religion for our own good. Islam is a way of life, applicable in any time and era... rules are set for our own good. we just have to learn.. to abide.. to seek that sacred knowledge. seriously, Allah doesn't need us. we need the religion HE gave.. we SO need HIM.
and so my quest to study in Tarim continues... Alhamdulillah my name has been registered with the school's administration. oh student Visa issuance halt... what a challenge that red sentence on the Yemen Embassy website is.
as my arabic teacher once texted.. "mashaAllah.. kheir insyaAllah.."
yes, inshaAllah khair.. jazakAllahu khayran ya ustadh syed mustafa alsagoff.. may Allah keep you and your family (that definitely includes your SiX kids mashaAllah!) in the best of health, Iman and be granted happiness in your days and your nights.. be given ease in tests of dunya and a rank close and pleased by Allah in akhirah.. amin.. =)
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