on 31 December 2016 almost a year ago, i wrote in my private diary in the confines and tranquility of this blessed place.. "Ya Allah, someone else will come right? and he will feel like the luckiest and happiest man alive.. why? because i am his wife. Amin. alhamdulillah for this blessed year."
i wrapped up 2016 in tears of redha.. telling myself i will be ok.. to hold on tight to whatever little knowledge i learnt in Tareem.. surah As-Syarh was constantly repeated in my heart.. a reminder that being in tribulation just means i am in waiting for my ease. i pat my heart and said.. be still.. this too shall pass and you will come to a point one day that you will be grateful sincerely this ruckus happened.
i wrapped up 2016 in tears of redha.. telling myself i will be ok.. to hold on tight to whatever little knowledge i learnt in Tareem.. surah As-Syarh was constantly repeated in my heart.. a reminder that being in tribulation just means i am in waiting for my ease. i pat my heart and said.. be still.. this too shall pass and you will come to a point one day that you will be grateful sincerely this ruckus happened.
i had flashbacks of life in Tareem.. da'wah trip in Inat especially.. worse *cringe* and best days of my life.. i then told myself, i survived Tareem in earnest Alhamdulillah, mashaAllah.. and came out of it knowing fully well how to depend on Allah.. time to RE-apply what i learnt. i proceeded (read:- forced myself) to list all things good that happened in 2016 and was still happening in my life then.. being grateful despite.
i turned 37 in September 2017 and i became a wife to a beautiful heart named Mohamed. mashaAllah. the legal union happened 3 months from the ta'aruf. within a month of family's blessings.. i had a proper Malay wedding organised by family and friends.. like proper pelamin.. baju nikah songket sanding sirih dara pulut kuning and abg2 silat proper wedding. MASHAALLAH. MASHAALLAH. MASHAALLAH. surun surun surun #habitbanatDZ. heh.
me and my husband had no part in it at all. its called hadirkan badan aje. heran? tak. moral of the story; with any decision to make there are 2 that needs to be in place.. 1) redha from Allah 2) redha from mothers (biological or not) and for those whose mothers have passed -Allah grants them Jannah- seek your blessed trusted teachers. the rest will then fall nicely in.
we wanted baraqah in our life.. to not be in a state of anywhere near vice.. to love halalal wa taiyiban. all we had were strong intentions. Allah knows how strong those intentions were and Alhamdulillah it was in line with what Allah wanted for us. we always reminded each other about this. always we say mashaAllah ever speechless in gratitude.
me and my husband had no part in it at all. its called hadirkan badan aje. heran? tak. moral of the story; with any decision to make there are 2 that needs to be in place.. 1) redha from Allah 2) redha from mothers (biological or not) and for those whose mothers have passed -Allah grants them Jannah- seek your blessed trusted teachers. the rest will then fall nicely in.
the very lesson i learnt in my path to Tareem.
we wanted baraqah in our life.. to not be in a state of anywhere near vice.. to love halalal wa taiyiban. all we had were strong intentions. Allah knows how strong those intentions were and Alhamdulillah it was in line with what Allah wanted for us. we always reminded each other about this. always we say mashaAllah ever speechless in gratitude.
Ya Rabbi.. may all the singles be granted ease and guidance in gaining your Your Gaze of Rahmah in their search for a blessed marriage.. may they never lose hope and for them to always be reminded to make du'a for their future spouse ESPECIALLY if they do not know who or where they are. Ameen.
why make du'a for a person you don't even know if he or she exists? its called tawakkal and a test of faith on knowledge that Allah words are true.. that HE made us as a pair.
why make du'a for a person you don't even know if he or she exists? its called tawakkal and a test of faith on knowledge that Allah words are true.. that HE made us as a pair.
4 comments:
mashaAllah kak dura im sooooo happy for you!!!!! <3 barakAllah lakuma wa baraka 'alaikuma wa jama'a bainakuma fi khayr
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:) thank you for the du'a.. sayang dia.. tapi ni siaper ye?
Salaam Dora....not sure if U were my Malay class classmate during sec sch time. Are U the same Dora from SGSS? Hope to get in touch with U again if U are. Miss those times in sch. Hope its not too late for me to say Congrats to you on finding ur life partner and soulmate! May both of U have a blissful maariage and entered Jannah together. Aamiiiiin.
wslm wr.wb. ah ah im from SGSS.. hei good to hear frm u.. ameen to ur du'a & to u too as well. our malay class tak ramai so im pretty sure i wd remember you.. you didn't sign off ur name.
i don't hv social media accounts so drop me an email dorayuana@hotmail.com
let's stay in touch inshaAllah
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